The men and women I’ve encountered over the past year are so pathetic. I hate hypocrites… I HATE WHEN PEOPLE LIE TO GET WHAT THEY WANT. I don’t deserve any of what’s happened over the past few months. From horrible friendships, to depression, to sickness. “You attract what you put out” bullshit. Anyone that knows me knows how great of a person I am. Yet I attract people who don’t want to do anything but pretend to like me. Don’t talk to me if you’re only attracted to the physical. Don’t talk to me because you know I’m loyal. Don’t be my friend because you know I’ll protect you. NO. I do not want to have sex with you, you animals. Find someone else to be your fuckbuddy. NO. I do not want to go out with you to parties and make sure you don’t get too wasted. NO. I do not want to sit in the house all day and text you.
If we can’t even hold a conversation what makes you think you would ever be considered as a partner? If you don’t respect yourself what makes you think I have to teach you how to? If you don’t want to make any effort to see me, why would you think I would? I’m going to need everyone to grow the FUCK up. I’m tired of playing mommy. This is why I reject so many people on the regular. This is why I rather surround myself with people who respect themselves and are independent and grown. I can’t deal with this “sideline” “friends with benefits” “what is a relationship?” “Oooo girl let me tell you” generation. I need intimacy, I need focus, I need goal oriented, I need serious, I need honest, I need REAL, I need help. This is why I’ve been alone trying to get my shit together. I don’t have time or energy to invest in people whose only purpose is to benefit themselves. No, no, no. Ask me if I care. NOPE.